Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
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10:30 pm - Actual size...
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Reuben's tiny footprint I took right before we buried him in actual size.. Look at those toes!
current mood:  touched
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Monday, January 10th, 2005
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9:26 am - Our Angel
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Things are a bit easier today, we have been talking about him with Family alot and as we talk we notice that we remember the cute things about him and that makes everyone smile.
I finished his Memory Book yesterday and we made copies for the Grandparents and Great Grandparents. It was an excellent idea because their faces were at first sad and tearful but as they read through it and read my letters I wrote Reuben when I first found out I was pregnant, read the letters we wrote him afterwards and read the things we found cute on him their tears still came but there was more smiles. That is important to us. Reuben would have wanted everyone to be happy about him not sad. He brought alot to us and we are very blessed to have him for a son.
Yesterday was the first time out, we went to Wal-Mart so I could get scrapbook supplies to do his book and develop the film of photos of him. I think we did very good.
I thought it would be the newborn babies that upset me but I just looked at them and felt very sad, the thing that got me was when we walked a corner and there was a girl with red hair like mine and she was 6 months pregnant. I started to cry in the middle of the store and got many stares. That was very hard to handle.
We got the film developed and the Man behind the counter was very kind and said he was sorry. He said the photo of Reuben's grave was gorgeous and he even cut the wallet photos we made of Reuben's tiny face and he did not mind that our son was not the typical baby you might usually see.
I have scanned the photos of our gorgeous little boy and if anyone feels comfortable to view them you are more than welcome.
Behind the cut:
( Read more... )
current mood:  numb
current music: Celine Dion.. Fly
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Saturday, January 8th, 2005
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10:56 pm - Thank You
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I am sorry I don't have a chance to thank everyone personally but just wanted you all to know that your support has been AMAZING feeling for Jeremy and I. He is very touched that alot of you mentioned his name as well as mine in your sympathy notes.
We appreciate you all very very much.
Thank you for the cards, the pictures and artworks, everything. I am printing it all and putting it into Reuben's Memory Book.
You are all amazing people and I am touched.. deeply touched.
Sarah
current mood:  grateful
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Friday, January 7th, 2005
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3:25 pm - Reuben's Birth Story
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Thursday, January 6th, 2005
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9:50 pm - Anyone reading this please pray for the baby!
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Ok I don't ask for much but right now PLEASE if you read this entry pray for my baby.
Tonight at 8 pm I felt something slide out and immediately my pants were wet. I went to the bathroom and had fluid dripping out of me. I called my Mom who called the Hospital and the Dr got a hold of me but his news was not good. He told me only 10% of women have their pregnancy continue once fluid leaks out, the other 90% miscarry. He told me to stay home in bed and the baby should come out tonight. He was very cold about it and I had a hard time to stay together as he just basically gave my baby a death sentence.
I have to wait this out and go to the ER tomorrow he said. PLEASE PRAY THAT THE BABY DOES NOT MISCARRY! I need prayers good luck thoughts.. ANYTHING!
I have to go back and rest some but wanted to get this posted, I believe in the power of prayers and I know there are more people online that I know than in real life! Love you all!
Sarah
current mood:  crushed
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Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
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3:28 pm - Ah bless!
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Went for my prenatal appointment today and told the Dr about my bleeding so they gave me an ultrasound! Everything looked great though so they said don't be concerned as it is not coming from the baby.
The baby was in there HUGE and was waving it's hands, rubbing its eyes and moving all over the place. We didn't try to find the sex because they were just checking for problems but in 4 weeks I go back and we can try to find it out then :)
I gained 4 and a half pounds since last appointment which the midwife said is great. I am glad I am not packing on the pounds, it makes me feel better because I am already chubby I don't need extra weight that doesn't benefit baby!
I want to hold the baby NOW! Man, the energy it was giving off was just so happy, this is gonna be one really cool kid I think :)
current mood:  enthralled
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Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
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10:11 pm - Bleeding :(
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I hate when I bleed. I have been bleeding now since 7 pm and have soaked two pads already. Please let it stop sooooon!
current mood:  worried
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Saturday, January 1st, 2005
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10:32 am - Pictures!
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I took photos of the Nursery and added them at the photo site.. click the link to your left that says Baby Pictures!
current mood:  energetic
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Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
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4:33 pm - My baby bump
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Saturday, December 25th, 2004
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6:02 pm - First Xmas haha
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So the baby is 14 weeks 2 days old (Inside of me!) 4 inches big and it got presents for Xmas LOL.
Jeremy's parents gave lots of presents labeled:
To McKenzie/Tru love Grandma & Grandpa
Baby got a Teether rattle animal set, Baby wipes, A set of farm animal bibs, and a little soft bunny to snuggle with. :)
My belly got patted twice hahaha
current mood:  happy
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12:21 am - Baby's first Christmas.. sort of
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Today is the Baby's First Christmas and the little thing is just barely 4 inches big haha.
Anyways Auntie Heidi was the first one to give presents for the baby from her and Joanna. She gave us:
2 recieving blankets
2 little ducky hats
1 newborn orthodonic pacifier
1 package of newborn diapers (so tiny!)
1 thing of wipes
The CUTEST pair of booties, I have to take a picture of them! Puppy booties
A rattle
A little frog that says a prayer when you squeeze it's tummy
and some little barrettes!
Very sweet :)~
current mood:  bouncy
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Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
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8:18 pm - Second Trimester!
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Today marks the first day of the second trimester.. cool..
My prenatal appointment was CANCELED! Some woman went into labor and the midwife had to deliver it so I got rescheduled for Jan 4. I cried. Isn't that pathetic? I have been so emotional today hah.
current mood:  moody
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Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
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1:08 pm - Just some babble
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I thought maybe I should update a bit more, I feel bad not writing so much in the baby journal but what is there to say?
I have still not had morning sickness.. unless the gagging while I brush my teeth counts? No throwing up. I feel so lucky. Watch it attack me later in the pregnancy though hehehe.
*Cravings
I have been craving dairy food and tomatos. Terribly bad, Campbells Tomato soup works wonders as long as I do not dilute it, then the tomatoey taste is perfect and strong. I drink way too much milk and am addicted to cheese. The baby might be a mutant mouse!
* Movement?
I have noticed some fluttering in the side where the baby is (right side) but am not sure if that is the baby or not as it seems a bit early to feel anything, but if you count from when we first took our test we are really 2 weeks ahead of what the Dr says which would place us at like 16 weeks I think and I heard you can feel movement then.. Trying not to get excited but not ignoring it either, everytime I feel the flutters I rub my belly and say Hi just in case ;-)
* Names
We have been discussing names mostly for if the baby is a Boy. We both definatly want the baby to be named McKenzie Marie Rainey if it is a girl but if it is a boy we cannot settle on a middle name we both like. Thought of naming him Steven Tru or William Tru but as of right now we are settling more on naming the baby Tru Joseph if it is a boy.
*Tummy
I have been getting much bigger this past 2 weeks it is weird to see my belly just sort of Pop out! I have always had a belly but now this is firmer and sticks out more than ever. I have been wearing alot of maternity tops and maternity pants brought into the smallest loop I can get them, lots of sweatpants too they are wonderful!
Jeremy keeps rubbing my belly and he has been showing it off and telling everyone he knows about the baby now, so I guess he feels better about the whole 'miscarriage' thing now, I feel better too, I know we are more or less out of the danger zone.
I spoke with my Dr today about the bleeding and she just told me to take it easy, keep relaxing and try to stay calm about it so I will talk with the midwife tomorrow about it yet again and just confirm all is OK.
current mood:  excited
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12:43 pm - Ultrasound photo!
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Here is the Ultrasound Picture we had done at 9 weeks 5 days. We are now 14 weeks along :-0
Tomorrow I go to the Dr for my second prenatal appointment.. can't wait!! I will have more to type about tomorrow when I come back.
current mood: happy
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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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8:20 am - 11 Weeks..
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Today I am eleven weeks pregnant! :) One more week and I am three months.. I can't believe it!
Still need to scan my ultrasound picture but the more I look at it the more dissapointed I am at how it just resembles a blurry blob in my stomach. I want to get a clearer one. I want the one the Dr kept!
current mood:  loved
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Monday, November 29th, 2004
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7:20 pm - Hmmmm
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I have been feeling exceptionally good :) I am very excited about the next appointment for the Dr but need to wait nearly another month! eeks.
Went through a phase last week of some close-to-throwing up moments but had enough self control to keep it at gagging. Ha.
So far I have been so lucky with this pregnany, 2 more weeks and I will already be 3 months pregnant.. unbelievable! And so far I have not had morning sickness that bad, just minor gagging and only throwing up twice Whoop!
I wish I had more to write but really I don't even know what to say as I don't feel much different yet...
Cravings this month though are cheese and tomatos... mmmmm tomatos!
current mood:  amused
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Friday, November 26th, 2004
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7:42 am - Blech!
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So far I have had hardly no morning sickness, I get to gagging more than anything over anything I smell, but this week my problem has been brushing my teeth, I gag and cough and hack just trying to get my damn teeth clean! Ew!
I guess I am going to try those cloths you stick on your finger to "brush" your teeth with and gargle listerine or something.. this is just terribly nasty to be doing every morning.. ew. lol.
Did Thanksgiving and it went great, was not sick really until after I ate then my stomach was a bit upset but I laid down in the armchair and rested and it went away.
We got a Christmas Card from Jeremy's parents and they wrote it to Jeremy,Sarah & the Little one. It was our first 'family' card! hehehe.
current mood:  drained
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Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
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12:37 pm - Dancing Baby
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We had the Ultrasound today at the Hospital so Jeremy and I went up at 11 and Hunter came along as well. We told him we would see the baby today so he was very excited.
The woman who did it was not all that friendly but I did not care. I was more excited about seeing the baby!!! And my gosh, what a surprise to see that she/he no longer looks like a tiny blob in the corner but now fills the womb almost!! It looks just like a baby doll in there, all the arms legs formed ect.
I was searching for the heartbeat and then realised I did not need to look for that because she/he was moving! hahaha Omg, that was amazing, the hands were waving all in the air and the little legs were just kicking away, very active and just so damn sweet.
I also got some Ultrasound prints so will get those scanned and post on here as well. We got the blurry photos and the woman took the best one so damn her but still!! The ultrasound shows much better than the photo shows. You could see everything on the screen and in the photo is is not that clear.
I framed one of the photos and put it on top of the tv in the frame that says 'I may be small but I own my Daddy's heart'
current mood: excited
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Friday, November 19th, 2004
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12:17 pm - Aww
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Today I went up to the Hospital and had my first prenatal visit. I am going with the midwives rather then physicians, it was REALLY nice. The room was set up like a dining room and I really liked her, her name was Anea. It took me 3 hours which was looong but Mom sat with Hunter in the waiting room and he actually was very good.
I go for another Ultrasound on Tuesday (Yay!) and I was told they MAY be able to know the gender of the baby then.. wow.
I was also told I am further along than originally thought and that the baby is due in early June rather than later June as thought.
I had an exam and she said everything looks excellent!
I did a Chinese Gender chart yesterday and it says we are having a girl :-) heheh Lets hope it is true!
current mood:  calm
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Thursday, November 18th, 2004
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10:08 am - Baby's Journal
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Today I decided to start a Journal of sorts for the baby.. I will update with information about the pregnancy and then of course once the baby arrives I will update with loads of Baby Stuff!
current mood: excited
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